Dear Jackson

Dear Jackson,

Today is a big day. 1 year ago it was a REALLY big day. 1 year ago you were conceived. Don't worry, it wasn't what you are thinking. Through the advancements and miracles of modern medicine 24 eggs were extracted from my body and one of them made you. On this day last year I was full of hope, fear and pain. 1 year ago today I could have never imagined I was about to become so lucky...I was about to become your mother. It's amazing what can happen in a year. Last year at this time you couldn't be seen to the human eye. You were part mommy and part daddy, trying to become an embryo. You were no more than 2 cells. One of these is you right before you were put into my belly for your 9 month growth spurt.

I'm not sure what has happened in the past couple of weeks but my little infant has disappeared and in it's place I have laughing, smiling, grabbing, playing, cooing, rolling, strong, big baby. You are so much fun right now. Everyday is different and you are doing something new. You love your toys and can grab them. Everything goes directly to your mouth. You have teeth coming in and they seem to really be hurting you. You've had a couple of rough days of teething but the pain seems to come and go. No teeth have broken the skin yet but I have a feeling they will be here soon. The faucet of jack is always on and between the drool, spit up and blow out poops you can easily go through 3 outfits a day. You are doing well sleeping. You take at least one, 2 hour nap a day and a few smaller ones as well. You love your milk and still like to eat every 3 hours during the day...you don't miss a meal but you have become distracted while eating. You like to stop, look around, play with my shirt and reach for my face. Sometimes you play a little game with me and look up and smile while you are nursing. You don't start eating again until I give in and smile back. I'm sure it's not a good habit to start but it is just too darn cute. I have a feeling this is just the beginning of you becoming distracted by your surroundings.

I could spend all day every day kissing your fat little cheeks and trying to make you smile. I am absolutely amazed by everything you do. You turn your head and look for me when I talk and smile when you find me. The recognition is the best thing ever. I think you know who your mama is!

I love you Jackson Ray...more than I ever thought possible. 1 year ago today I had high hopes of conceiving a child but I never could have guessed how amazing it would feel to be a mommy.

Love,

Mommy